I prefer to write you letters. When I write you a letter I am taking time out of my day to think about you. When I write you a letter I actually take my glasses off so I can read what I'm writing. My age is getting to me.
I write my letters by hand. I leave the mistakes to show my humanity. Sometimes e-mail and text can be too perfect. Occasionally there is a funny little auto correct but for the most part texts are short pseudo sentences that are a quick action or reaction to something immediate that may or may not need a response.
When I write to you I stop to look at the world around me and I think about how I can share it with you. When I text you I look at the screen and try to see how fast my thumbs can move.
If I'm lucky your text back will be immediate and it will almost be like we're having a conversation. It doesn't matter if you're in Connecticut coming up with reasons why we can't hang out, in California wondering why we haven't hung out, or in Europe wondering why I won't fly out.
When I write a letter I'm lucky if the letter gets to you. Sometimes it is just lost in space. Other times it is taken by someone who feels I have no business writing to you in the first place.
When I send you a text lately I have been worried about your safety. I am hoping that the regional tragedy that has struck your area hasn't somehow taken you, my friend or acquaintance, away from me. My text is a knee jerk reaction to fear.
When I send you a letter I have time. I am safe and I'm hoping you are, too. I don't have a fear that I'll never see you again. I'm not worried while I wait for your response back. It's still like we're having a conversation BUT it's a more leisurely, relaxed conversation where we are allowed to laugh and smile quietly.
When I read your letters I know you've taken time out of your day to think about me. I actually have to take my glasses off so I can read what you've written. My age is getting to me.
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